just a inconvenience

This is my life and I need to accept it..
I am doing it alone and I have it accept that..
I am a inconvenience to family and friends and I have to accept that...
I am not to bother friends and family unless they want something from me and I need to accept that...
Frank is ill and may not live another year and I have to accept that...
I have to figure out everything and how to handle everything by myself and I just have to deal with it..
I am alone even though I live with my husband and child and have to accept that...
This is the cards I was dealt and although many backs have been turned on me I will not turn my back on anyone... I am who I am I am sad I am scared and I am carrying a plate that is heavy and I need a friend but accept the fact they find me and my life and needs inconvenient.
ignore the tears they are self pity, ignore the heartbreak I feel, I caused it because I chose to love, ignore me and be to busy or tired or just not feeling like giving me a ride when my fridge is empty, it's my fault some how ...
Call me when you need a favor, I will be right here and will help you.